This assignment what particularily my favorite. I didn't stylistic thinking that was involved with it. It was more deep with thought and ideas. I thought it would be more simple. I am proof reading my work and second guessing what i wrote down, I feel as if it not good enough nor is it measuring up to my capabilities when it comes to writing.  I almost want to do my assignment over again but i know that would be a smart move because i don't have the time and I guess I have accept the work i've done and be happy with it.

So you say to write something "thought provoking" . I personally think this is the hardest blog to write about. I don't know what provokes those who read these blogs. I guess I am just going to talk about something that has been on my mind a lot lately, anyone read the paper or listen to the news? There is one on going story that honestly has me disgusted and angry . The Phoenix Sinclair story. For those of you who don't know about what I'm talking about its about a little girl who died at the hands of her mother and the mom's boyfriend. Its also about how cfs failed to realize this poor child had been dead for sometime. Here are some links to check and read about this terrible tradegy 

http://www.cbc.ca/news/canada/manitoba/story/2012/12/10/mb-phoenix-sinclair-inquiry-death-manitoba.html

http://cnews.canoe.ca/CNEWS/Crime/2012/11/28/20392991.html

For the parts that I participated in when it came to Winnipeg Harvest I thought it was great idea from the class to come up with a positive project. Putting together this project was a great skill builder. It helped with being verbal and being comfortable doing so. I also think it helped with being open to help complete strangers which for some isn't something they are used to.  I thought it was a valuable experience for us to learn how just putting a little effort can go a long why. I know it goes a long way because as a child my mom was a single parent and from time to time she had to turn to to food banks to get that extra little bit of help to feed my family.  I took a lot of joy out of giving back to Winnipeg Harvest because it wasn't for them I don't know where else my mom could have found that little bit of helped she needed for her kids.

My opinions have changed for this class. I do like the other students they are friendly but at the same time I find that some of them can make me feel overwhelmed with them being so distracting. I sometimes feel as If i can't get what I need to get done in this class. When I came back to get my credits to finally graduate I never thought it would be this difficult. Sometimes this class makes me feel like I'm in high school and I hate that feeling. I feel as if there is a time to be silly and talkative and there is a time to work and be mature. I have completely changed my thoughts english has been a lot easier. I feel that after letting what I was learning in this class sink in it wasn't nearily as difficult as I thought . I have gained a better understanding on how things are percieved with reading and writing. I learnt how to look at things differently not so literal. This course turned out to be something completely different than I intially thought. I thought that it would be non stop writing about things that I could careless about , but I was wrong it tied into a bunch of different types of texts that interest me on a pretty personal level. I have met some of goals that I have set for myself. Next semester I want to try and work on them more when I try and get my grade 12 out of the way. Looking forward to the next chapter of my life

I love reading novels. Horror genre or true story novels are most what I am interested in and the occasional lovey dovey type of stories.  The last novel I had read was part of a series. It was about a couple of brothers who both had fell in love with this woman who turned out to be a vampire. The two brothers had died at the hands of there father who killed them for helping the vampire try and escape. I chose these books to read because they had certain elements in the story that I like such as love and vampires. Of all six of the books in this series I liked reading the very first book, i liked learning how the love triangle began between the two main characters.

Looking back and reading what I first set as my goals at the beginning of the years. My goals haven't changed too much. At the beginning of the year I had said that one of my goals was to gain better social skills, slowly I do find that I have opened up more. I am not as quiet as I used to be. I do participate more in class and group discussions. My thoughts of this class now from the beginning as different. I used to think this class was harder then math,but with all honesty I don't think it is. I don't think its easier or harder. It's a whole different way of thinking not in the way you'd think about math. I think that I thought it was harder because I didn't have a complete understanding in the way things were being taught but now I know how to understand the work being asked me. I would like to continue to work on my social skills, even though I have been working on them slowly I would like to try picking up the pace. I don't want to always be the quiet reserved person that i can be at times. I don't know how else to work on them other then what I have been doing so far, like participating in class and group discussions.

Now learning and understanding more about "style" of text I think I might have a different outlook into what I read/view/listen to. Currently I am reading a book written in first person before learning more about "style" I hadn't given any thought as to why it was written the way it is. I never asked myself questions about what the author's intent was writing the way they had. I also never have thought of any emotional responses to what I have been reading. Now thinking back to books that I have read and the one I am reading now I can ask myself those types if questions that have never crossed my mind before. Even watching certain t.v. shows I have noticed I will pay attention to the style. I listen to way the dialogue is presented and the tone of the show. These are things I believe I never would have done before learning what I have.

I think that it is important to know about effective group discussion because it helps develop stronger social skills. It helps to you to understand the tasks at hand. It gives the opportunity to share ideas amongst others. Learning in the process how others comprehend things. Practicing group discussions allows you to expand your thinking,bouncing ideas off others deepening your thoughts. I'm not really sure how this is revelant to me personally. It could possibly  be an eye opener to more depth ideas I could have instead of going with the more obvious choices or answers. Maybe it could help with jobs i could get. Without group discussions who's to say I'd have any of the skills i'd need to get said job. In real life I think that I would use effect group discussion when listening to instructions to tasks my teachers have given.Giving the teachers my complete and undivided attention would be a good start, asking frequent questions.

I am going to write about bullying. It's something I had first hand experience with growing up. I was bullied for a number of years when I was younger. Everything from my race to my weight and anything and everything in between. The people whom had bullied me made me feel like I was not good enough for their standands,often making me feel like there was something wrong with the way I was. I was picked on alot because of the way I was dressed. I never understood why,it wasn't like I went to school dirty or with holes in my clothes. I was always clean and never went to school with holes in my clothes because they always made it to the garbage. Growing up having these negative experiences have made me have the insight as to how it affects a person even later on in life. Even though the bullying did stop in middle school I carried the burden of that time of my life to high school. I struggled with finding myself and where I belonged.I turned to using drugs and going through years of depression. I didn't see the point of my life or the importance of it. Often thinking of a way out, attempts were made to end my suffering. As miserable as I was I cleaned myself up because I had realized that if I had continued to do the drugs and believe that my life wasn't worth living I wouldn't be here today. I would have believed that all  the rotten things people had said about me were true. Which they weren't. People don't think about what it would be like to walk in someone's else's shoes which is terrible. I think more people need to think more before they speak, because I think that someone who's gone through the things I have and who's is here with a clean bill of health and continuing to get a better education is doing pretty good! Just because the bullies thought I wasn't good enough doesn't mean they were right! They judged this book by its cover, before they got to know the story and for that I say it sucks to be you and I will gladly prove that I am better then that!

I am choosing to write about the story Ambush. I think the theme consists of old man dealing with how he was affected about the war he was in. He knows how it had changed him having to shoot someone whom he thought didn't deserve it.He has been haunted by the memories of that point in time.The man not wanting to share those stories & details with his daughter because he doesn't want her to suffer the same fate and disturbing images in her mind that he has since he was in the war.