Conditions of Use
Do you ever feel as if the world is just falling apart right in your own hands? Have you ever felt as if you wish you are not alive? Have you ever felt EMPTY?
And seriously, it is not a picnic. Especially the emptiness. Sometimes you think that your life is a truly wonderful gift that God has given us, but sometimes you just feel....empty. You feel as if you're no use to anyone, or that you're better dead than alive, or that life is just rotten, and I've felt all three.
The hardest one is the day I've been through today. It was absolutely, with no question, the most rotten day in the history of rotten days.
I guess you'd call being called a freak one reason. Or being really disappointed about something that you really wanted to do but then couldn't because you have to go to the hospital to do IV.
And then you'd also call being imitated and embarrassed in front of laughing people who you thought were your friends is also rotten.
And then also if you'd just see people throwing papers into the bin (even though there was a recycling box outside, which they knew) just because they wanted to make you upset is also rotten. And sadly, that all just made me close to tears.
Well, it wasn't exactly nice of those people for them to do that to me. But I don't think I should care that much. I mean, those people don't know what they're saying. And it's just their loss. And I don't care that much anymore.
Article posted June 5, 2009 at 12:33 PM •
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I am deeply saddened to read your post. I am hopeful that you will be able to find some peace and clarity over this long weekend. It is sometimes difficult to be such a caring and aware person when others around you don't seem to be as well. I encourage you to stay strong and to remain committed to doing the right things for the world, others and yourself. You are a unique and special being, please do not let anyone else cause you to feel otherwise.
Comment Posted on June 6, 2009 at 04:44 AM by
I think every person goes through that feeling of emptiness, but one then uses those feelings to make goals and changes.
It is inexcusable for any person to call another names. However, it takes a strong person to disregard that and move on. Last week, I had to have a talk with my kids about re-evaluating friendships. Friends are understanding, respectful of your beliefs, and supporting. They are people who value you as you and not anyone else. Maybe, dear L, it is time for you to look closely at those friends and re-evaluate. I know I had to do that many times, but I finally have my circle of friends. We are all different in our ways, our thoughts and our beliefs. However, we all have at least one thing in common; we all value each other for who we are. We enjoy our differences! If you do not mind, I would like to use your blog to say to my friends that I am truly blessed to have them (Mrs. B, Mrs. N, and Mrs. S thank you for being just wonderful people).
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